Day Seventy Seven

Feeling better today. I slept until about 9am this morning and got out of bed and went and enjoyed the morning air for a little bit. I sat and watched the Bears beat Tampa Bay in London and then watched the Packers and Vikings battle it out this afternoon, so I didn't do much of anything at all today. I was very very lazy today. I guess I'm finally taking a day to relax and do nothing. Last week was a busy week for me....I worked my ass off last week and I think a few days of doing nothing is deserved. I'm kind of lost in this whole diet and exercise thing right now for some reason and I'm beating myself up about it. The weather is breaking and it's making it really easy for me to be lazy and be lax about it. The sun doesn't come up until late each morning and it goes down early. I hate it. I want summer back. I am dying for change each and every single day and I am finding it hard to find each and every single day. I need a jump start. I need a new beginning. I need a pep talk. I need a reminder of why I'm doing this. I have a million reasons to do it, but, and this might sound really dumb, but I feel like all those reasons are stale and I need to rejuvinate it all. Here I sit watching football and wish I was out with a girl having dinner or out doing touch n go's in a Cessna at Aurora or DuPage challenging myself. Why is something that should be so easy to do with all the reasons I have so damn difficult?? It's so damn frustrating and I wish I knew what to do about it. Maybe I need professional help... I don't know. I guess I feel a little lost again. I'll get there. I know I will. I just need to find the right way to veer at this fork in the road. Hope you're all having a good night and had a great weekend. Love you guys. Catch you on the flipside.