Where to begin...this was a long day for sure. Woke up around 5am. Got to work and walked a little. Again, I walked until I hurt too much. That's all I can do right now. Go until it hurts too much. I worked on my original office today. I started cleaning it and getting it ready to work in again. Found something there that brought back some memories that I hadn't thought about in a while. Not really expecting it. :( I spent most of the day cleaning my office out and getting rid of certain things that I don't need anymore. I filled up 6 garbage bags of old files and folders, boxes of parts and computers, printers and hardware I don't need.
Got home and wanted to rest, but I had to mow the lawn...once that was over, my buddy Dan said he was cancelling his camping trip and wanted to know if I wanted to come over for a fire and a few beers. Absolutely. Anything to get me out of this house and keep me occupied is what I need. We talked about so much. Dan and Emily are amazing people. Probably the best friends I've ever had in my life. No matter what, they're always there for me and no matter how much we BS back and forth and give each other grief jokingly, I can tell how much they really love me. We were totally engaged in a great conversation tonight. We discussed a lot about the changes I'm going thru and how decisions that have been made in my life in the last month have led me to a point where I need to be diligent about this change because they do not want to lose me and they most certainly don't want to ever face the day where they have to figure out how to tell their son what happened to Uncle Mikey. We all know I need to lose this weight, but I've never met anyone articulate and tactful enough to encourage me without making it sound like just a "You can do it" speech. Things like telling me that finding someone is the last thing I need to be thinking about right now and how this is time for ME to do this and only I can do this for myself. No matter how much they wish they could snap their fingers and make it work for me, they can't. Giving me ideas on working out and ways around all this pain and things like Emily telling me that I am an attractive guy already, but to be completely honest, thinking as a single woman, she would never be able to enter into a relationship with me in fear of falling in love with me and then dying early and breaking her heart. I completely and totally understand that. I need to hear stuff like that...as harsh has it may sound, it's something that makes complete and total sense to me. I mentioned that I wished I had a pool to work out in so I could lessen the stress on my joints and see how it goes and while we were talking about it, Emily was looking up places on her laptop for me to go to. We had a few beers, a great campfire, and a bunch of smiles and laughs, but nothing makes life better than spending time with those few friends that you hold so near and dear to your heart knowing that they really are behind you 100000% percent even I'm the only one that can do this for myself....I mean, hell, it's almost 2am and I just got home. We talked that long and it was worth every second. The time is precious with my friends, but the memories and encouragement that sticks in my mind is forever monumental. I love you guys
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