Day Forty Two

Hmm...not sure what to write about tonight. I feel like these posts are starting to be repetitious and maybe it's time for a break, but I think this is something I need to stick with. I had kind of a weird day today. Got up and took a shower and got dressed. We went out to breakfast with Josh, Megan, Matt and Mom and Dad. We went out to Eggsclusive out in Sycamore. It was great. Never bad. I drove out there by myself because I had to go out to work to work on a computer that had to be reformatted by tomorrow. The drive time yields lots of free time to think. I think about me, my quest to be healthy, the past, the future...It kinda sucks in a way. I weighed myself this morning. I lost the 4 lbs that I gained last week, but I feel like I've lost more than that. I can feel it in my clothes. My jeans are falling off of me and I had to drill a new hole in my belt this morning. I think I'm going to start weighing in every two weeks from now on...seeing the scale be stationery sucks and I get down on myself. I had one of those days today where I just miss a lot of the past. I miss how my life was when I was with my ex girlfriend. I had so much to do all the time, I had that family feeling, I felt like I was making someone really special very happy. That's all I want to do is make someone great really happy and have a wonderful family. Most days, I do just fine and then I have one of those days where I just completely miss her and her daughter. A part of me was brought out by those two that I never knew existed and now that part of me has gone back into hiding and I want him back sometimes. I know, it's been over two months and it's time to move on, but then days like this just creep up on me. Oh well, tomorrow is another day for sure. On a separate note, I have a slow leak in a tire on my truck and I need to get it fixed tomorrow. I can probably go to work safely with it, but it needs to be fixed on the way home for sure, so I made an appointment to get it fixed. I have warranties on my tires, so let's hope they cover it. I don't feel like shelling out $120 for a new tire. Bears disappointed today, but that's ok, they'll bounce back! I hope this rain goes away so I can walk/ride tomorrow morning. Emily ran a half marathon today and I'm so proud of her. One of these days I'll be able to run with her. Well, I'm off to watch some Sunday Night Football and do a little laundry. I hope you all had a great weekend, and hope you have a great night! Goodnight, friends. Catch you on the flipside...