A while

Been a while since I've written. I got up at 4:30 this morning and started riding at 5:30am at work this morning. I did a tad over 20 miles. I'm dog tired! I feel good though. I definitely need to ride more often than I have been. I got a text from a great friend that made me feel good about what I was doing. She knew I was busting my butt riding, so she gave me that little bump of encouragement. Great way to start my morning! I'm feeling good lately and have come to realize that I have a lot more friends than I thought. Some things have been on my mind recently though that have brought back old memories of my ex and I was feeling sorry for myself until I realized how good I'm doing without her. I really think I would have dug myself deeper in debt and would not have been happy with our living situation. I can't believe it's been this long for me to finally realize it, but I was so hung up on the fact that someone disliked me that I never focused on the positives. I'm nearly out of debt now and have been able to focus more on work and family. Yes, I still have days where I miss her, but I think it's more the fact that I miss the incoming love and attention no matter what. Oh well, I'll find another one someday, right? I just have ME in mind right now and need to remember to look out for #1...hard sometimes, but it's all good. Well, I'm exhausted and I'm going to bed. Goodnight, friends... Catch you on the flipside...