Tired

This week has taken its toll on me and I kind of had a breakdown on the way home from work. I had to pull over and take a deep breath and just calm myself down. Everything seems to be going wrong at work and I feel like maybe I'm not the right guy for the job. I find myself second guessing my abilities and worry that I'll see the day where I'm pulled aside and asked to give up passwords and let someone else do my job. It's hard. I know it's extremely unlikely, but I really feel like anything can happen lately and I'm worried. I've been riding my bicycle every morning. It's very very difficult getting up at 4:30am and riding 10-15 miles. My knees are sore, my arms hurt, my butt hurts, my back hurts... Laying down does feel good though. I'm just sooo exhausted! This might be the hardest thing I've ever done. I'm so tired. Just tired. It'll be a while before I'm used to it, but for right now, my body hates me. Well, I'm going to bed to catch up. Catch you all on the flipside.